This isn’t the story about what it probably should be. It isn’t the story of yet how I found more drama in my life or that I found a new love that touches my soul so deeply. Maybe it’s me, but I don’t think anyone really realizes that it could be just that. This isn’t the story of the bold adventure I have found myself on this time, nor is it the story of how I overcame an obstacle in my life. Not everything is crumbling and being destroyed, but that doesn’t mean that everything is thriving and filled with joy. But does that just mean survival? Maybe it could just mean existence, I don’t know. To be honest, I don’t know what this story is, and for the first time I don’t know where it’s going and I don’t know if thats good or bad, but each and every moment each factor creeps up my nerves, rushes through my blood, and fills me dead. Promises turned into regrets, words turned into broken torturing lies, emotions neglected and ignored, mementos thrown away or burned, significance hidden, and we can fear it all, we can run from it all or try and do something to push these things away to try and say they aren’t real, but regardless, they will arrive, for through our lives, these events are never-ending and there’s nothing that we can do to stop them. Unless, we find a way to break the loop, the cycle, the pattern, of all these horrible things. That may just be acknowledging it for what it all is, instead of hiding the fact that it’s changing who we are, for the worse, when it could be inspiring us, for the better, to do better. Look, I’m just a kid with a laptop looking to fulfill his purpose of inspiring people, and I am a long way from making that a reality on a large scale, but I want that impact to never end, and one of my biggest fears is that one day when I cease to be, so does my story, my work, everything I am and everything I’ve built, gone, along with my soul as it goes to who knows where. The love I feel for the ones around me, despite the circumstances, despite what they may believe, the love I feel will never cease, it will never end, because, whether they believe it or not, I want them all to know they deserve love and happiness, that at least to someone they are very significant. I’ve said for awhile now that I cherish both the good and the bad, usually because no matter what happens, I will be able to gain some experience or knowledge that I can use in my life, and thereafter for someone else if they so required the guidance. Here’s the thing, I believe and put my full ethic in that mindset I’ve built for myself, but I’ve started to learn that has made me take more risks than ever before, when my original goal was set on preservation, But I want more than just preservation now, I want livelihood, I don’t want to just survive this all, I want to create more from it, rise myself from the ashes, and just, I want to be happy, and yet for some reason each and every day that I’m taking these risks, that honestly aren’t as risky as they could be or should be, making the choices I do, trying to hold it all together, it makes it harder for others to be able connect with me and engage, and I don’t know why. It has never stopped my entire life, and the people I thought I’ve had, start to wither away, and as they do, I slowly wither too. Like I said, who I’ve become, it all is in the ones I’ve tried to love and impact, and when I don’t have that anymore, when those connections do end, well, my end starts to come quicker, and unfortunately, those type of stories, they will never end. And so, maybe it’s time to make more people know they are true, so at least someone can learn something after this all is over, because that’s all I’ve ever wanted. I’ve seen the ending on many things, many relationships, many passions, many lives, and the one thing I want to make sure is solidified in this world, is that happiness, purpose, significance, love, all of it can be found in the darkest of shadows, because there is light, and that light can never end as long as the hearts of humans can continue to beat. These are my never ending stories, and they are finally about to be heard.